sophia’s travel by night

it's been a long long time since i've written anything down... too many thoughts to figure out. emotions i can't pinpoint. ever since the failed ivf, i mean, a complete failure that even the dr suggested not going further, i've not known what to write, how to put down how i felt exactly. and then, ther'r the ppl that r ever encouraging, suggesting this dr n other dr they hv known  frnd's hv used n had success at. or other suggests that once it's over, i'd get pregnant without even trying. it's been nearly 1/2 yr now. i think the fact is, there's not gonna b a child. n now, i just hv to deal with it. i think the worst part is, i can't help the inner feeling of jealousy n envy whenever i hear another frnd or someone nearby getting pregn left-n-rt. it's a feeling i've had to suppress cuz it isn't a good feeling. i don't want to end up being one of those women who hate or gets jaded. i mean, nvr thought ths was in my plans, that ...

Gotan Project au casino de Paris : Initié à la fin des années 1990 par le programmateur français Philippe Cohen Solal et les musiciens Christop H. Müller (Suisse) et Eduardo Makaroff (Argentin...

this is the write-up for my artist statement n bio for my show in nov.  PERIPHERAL : FEATURING WORK BY SOPHIE LEE November 3, 2011 6:00pm - November 29, 2011 5:00pm Pearl Gallery & Framing 1017 NW Davis St. Portland, OR 97209 Pearl Gallery & Framing is very pleased to host Peripheral, an exhibition of the work of Sophie Lee. Painting calligraphic-style, incorporating pods and seeds from the natural world into her work, she expresses in simple strokes a life both optimistic and rooted in a long cultural history, with composition intended to remove the clutter and offer a sweeping line of focus. Lee directs our attention to details that are all too easy to overlook. This show is a collection of Sophie Lee's exquisite paintings based on her Peripheral series and includes original acrylic paintings on glass, acrylic paintings on canvas, original ink drawings and a unique media of natural elements (seeds and pods) curated into shadow-boxes and embe...

woke up this morning n the the uncomfort in my tummy area came back to me. o right, i had surgery. tht was  this past friday, i went in to the dr's office for a very small surgery (removing the eggs from my ovaries), yet it still requires a full   body  anesthesia . it's the strangest sensation, being in a hospital bed, u r being wheeled around. the perspective from ther is so.."this is not me n wher i am supposed to b" sensation. the nurses n drs r really nice n gentle with u. they try to explain every single thing they r doing, then they show u the little needle with the drugs n say, "now we'r going to inject u with this" n b4 u kno it, ur lite r turned out. everything else that happens during tht time, u r not a participant of, at least u hv no memories of it. the time btwn tht n when u wake up can b really long or just a mere few hrs, but the anesthesia screwed it all up for u, cuz it's all lost. to me, it was just a mere flash. i woke up, n som...

this video by vanessa marzaroli of blind, is what i've always envisioned my paintings would b like animated. one day, i will get around to do this... luv this. this article on the theory of new media art is also very interesting, talking about the time in-btwn.

i hv abt 6 embryos growing on 1 side n 8 on the other. a little slower than normal, guess i'm just a late-comer

remember i had submitted a pc n been selected in a juried show ? yes. that is starting tonite, the reception. but, it's 3 hrs drive south. i think i'll hv to pass on it. focus on my work n ivf. but here is the postcard from the show. un peu de pays, but ok. 

...that is what this woman, walking her dog, yelled at from across the street, as i was collecting these acorns from the curbside of the park. only in portland, will there b someone to tell u off abt anything, when it's none of their biz! n when i told her tht i only collect the tiny ones, she went off n said they even eat the tiny ones. then she babbled on some more which i cudn't hear from across the streets n on-coming cars, then i decided to ignore her.  n no, i didn't steal these from the squirrels. i collected most of these from the curbside n street sides. or from areas without squirrels such as parking lot, where they'r often crushed by the cars or ppl passing by. humans, do most of the damage anyways, to these acorns. whenever i walk past trees with these acorns falling off, it's normally the gardeners, city maintenance crew tht blow these off n cart them off as trash. anyhoo. i'm having a lot of fun collecting these acorns. they r so beautiful. it...

today, i'm not going to complain. i've a good life to start and i will keep up a good attitude about ths baby thing.

so i was with my acupuncturist, uma, the other day. n b4 she left me alone with the needles in me, she asked me to picture this... imagine tht i was a vessel n ready to receive this love for the baby that will grow inside me. and that all i have is love for this thing.... hmmmm. then the light flicked-on inside me. maybe, just maybe, all this talk of the baby, i just hadn't been feeling it? when i hold my kitty, i feel a lot of love n cuddliness for her. but... when i think about the possible invasion of a creature tht will take over my body (like aliens), feed off me, chg me, grow inside me, n then rip me apart so it can come out n take over my life... hmmmm. i shudder a bit. n maybe. maybe, this is why it hasn't happened for me, this whole baby thing. i just hadn't n cudn't wrap my mind around this whole thing. i guess ths is wht i need to work on, the inside of me need to feel like a vessel... well, something to chew on anyway.

this is a blog by brendon & akua in vancouver. they've built n moved into their new home recently. this is a small footprint house built in the other end of the yard of brendon's parents' house. it's really very green in the way it's built and of course, this is a proof that, who needs a huge house?

i spent nearly all of my life worried about getting pregnant. unplanned n unwanted pregnancy was constantly in the back of my head. i hadn't even thought of it as a big deal when my ob/gyn nurse warned me when i turned 36, tht it'll b difficult to hv a kid by tht age, n tht she was obligated to warn me by "law"!!! cuz baby was just never in my plans back then. i've been free as a bird.  then i turned 39 n got married. life plans sort of took a different turn when 1 has a partner who gets a say in my life now too. so we've been trying to hv ths baby. it's not too encouraging to learn tht altho i'm healthiest 41 (now nearly 42) yr old around me, my eggs r still 40+ yrs old... n that is, i guess, old. nothing like such a news to show u ur age, no matter how u look or feel. so now it's aug turning into sept, i can truly feel what ppl used to say, "the clock ticking away" damn, this used to b no big deal to me. age wasn't an obstacle at...

the following is the note of acceptance from an exhibit i submitted to earlier this summer. so far this year, i've been accepted to 4 juried shows. a couple of these r online. the following will b in roseburg, OR this sept. i've also had many rejections. this is the way it is with submissions i guess. i won't b discouraged.  hopefully, the November show in portland OR will b a way for me to connect with ppl more. maybe i can then put 2gether something for sf's gallery in the fall too. until then, i'll just keep painting. Dear art working friends – I know many of you have been eagerly awaiting the news concerning the 5 th Annual Hundred Valleys Exhibit results.  Tom Browning, this year's juror had 176 images to choose from.  Those whose works were selected are listed below.  If your name is not on the listing, keep working, keep submitting, never to be discouraged, "beauty IS in the eye of the beholder".  Here are some words from Tom Browning concer...