heaviness

the simple idea of having a studio to paint in, is that so hard? y so many obstacles thrown in the path to reaching tht simple goal? i'm bewildered as how things have gotten so out of hand. and everything else just not falling into place. am i not ready for a place to b home? it's gotten me re-thinking, should i b here in taiwan, painting here? where is home?
they say it's where the heart is. what if i hv no heart?

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